As part of my 90-Day Challenge (July/August/September) I committed to 12 blog posts. I’m in Week 6 and to date I’ve written just one. I should have written six.
This lack of progress is indicative of the struggles I’m having in the middle of this current challenge. Things just aren’t moving at the speed I had intended.
I also committed to some measurable weight loss goals. I’m terribly embarrassed (shocked/disappointed) to say I’ve actually stayed the same – despite some sizable efforts to lessen “the load on the scale”. Since July I’ve been tracking everything I eat using an app on my phone. This is SUPPOSED to work but I have not seen any movement on the scale. Frustrated much?
Another commitment has been to watch video as part of a history course (Great Courses). I’ve fallen behind my commitment. They aren’t grabbing me like they used too.
Balance (relationship with others) has been positive although I find myself actively looking for areas of improvement (by perhaps amplifying any shortcomings). There has been a huge change in terms of financial management in both my personal and professional lives. On the personal front, we’ve been using a fixed spending strategy for weekly expenses (food, eating out, etc.). We set up a separate spending account and have been transitioning over to this new way of spending. It’s been a little bumpy (bounced check) but overall it’s working (I think). I had expected and mentally prepared for these bumps so overall I’m pleased with the progress to date.
On the business front, this new Profit System has been pretty good. I’m getting used to the different accounts and have transferred all Operating Expenses over to the OpEx checking account. On the 27th of July I did my first PF allocations. It was great updating the spreadsheet although the totals for distributions weren’t as much as I would have liked. Moving forward, I believe the benefits of this system will be profound.
So why am I writing this blog post. If you must know, because I can say I’ve written a blog post. That’s two in six weeks (should be one a week). Two is better than one.
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I also wanted to just used this a way to get thoughts down on paper about how I feel. I’m frustrated that I can’t seem to build up any decent momentum in this challenge. Things are moving but I’m focusing on the negatives or the shortcomings (which isn’t really like me). I’m pissed off that the scale refuses to budge.
This frustration is affecting how I see the other areas in my life. For example, this profit first system and the implementation of the Story Brand concept into my business SHOULD be cause for celebration. I even picked up a large client last week (large hospital in Florida). There was a moment of celebration but it was short-lived when I get on the scale. Those things are mutually exclusive for goodness sake.
At work I’m spending too much time performing tasks that I need to delegate. It’s taking time away from the tasks I should be working on (namely marketing). When it comes to Body, my frustration at my lack of progress is just a huge mental drag.
Over the weekend I halted my Food Dairy entries. I had done this for a month. Maybe I was overthinking it (there’s a shock). I have made clear my goals. Maybe I need to focus on my goal rather than get caught in the day-to-day and getting obsessed. I liked the challenge in my first 90-Day challenge (to run a 5K in under 30 minutes). This goal motivated me. I’m going to spend this week regrouping those areas causing me to get discouraged (Body & Being). I need to get back to daily meditation and journalling. I do commit to posting in my 90-Day Challenge Dairy but as far as weekly posts; maybe I should put this on the back-burner. Some thoughts for me to ponder.